Secret Admirer

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I have always loved receiving handwritten letters. There is nothing more exciting to me than opening up my mailbox to find a letter from a long-lost friend. With technology letters aren't as common as they used to be. It is kind of disheartening if you think about. I love the time that someone takes to actually sit down and write a letter. A handwritten letter. It means something more than just the everyday text or email.

I was thinking the other day how neat it would be to have a secret admirer. I know, I am old-fashioned and this blog is proving it. But just hear me out for a second. How sweet would it be for you to go to your mailbox and find a handwritten letter from a boy stating that he thinks you are an amazing girl with a gorgeous smile. It would make your heart pound, wouldn't it? 

Would you write back? Let's say yes, you would write back. To be honest, I would. I have no clue what I would write. Maybe I would ask some of his favorite hobbies, if he hangs out with my friend group, etc. But there would be one thing constantly on my mind... What does this boy look like? 

It is very important that you attracted to someone you date. Looks aren't everything. This is for certain, but you do have to be attracted to the person you date. 

So... let's say that you and your secret admirer have been writing back and forth for a quite awhile. You have fallen for this guy within the exchange of handwritten letters that get longer and longer the more you write to each other. It is finally time that you find out who your secret admirer is. You are nervous. You are excited. You... don't think he's attractive. 

What do you do now? You don't think this is guy is attractive. At all. But you LOVE his personality and all the letters and feelings that are exchanged. What do you do? Friend-zone him? Ignore him the rest of your life? Both seem logical, right?

To be honest, I think I would friend zone him. I know that makes me sound awful, but I don't want to ignore this guy whom I have a lot in common with. A guy who genuinely thinks I am an amazing girl. What do you say to him? Look, I really have enjoyed this back and forth communication, but I'm just not attracted to you physically? Yeah, okay. I don't know. I've never been in this situation. Remember, I'm speaking hypothetically. 

You wouldn't want to lead him on though. That would not be right by any means. Don't pretend to be attracted to someone you aren't.

However, let me say this. The more you look at the good in people and fall in love with someone's personality the more they become attractive to you. Seeing beautiful things in people make them beautiful to you. You find yourself actually thinking they are attractive. I have experienced this. I promise it happens. They might not be the hottest human-being, but you aren't either. Sorry, but it's the truth.

Anyway, this is not my point. If you have made it this far in reading this blog, then props to you. You are about to read the true meaning of the reason I spent the time typing this blog. (If only, I could handwrite it for you.) 

So here it goes....

What if you were the secret admirer? What if you were writing to this guy that you wanted to notice you? A guy you truly could see yourself being with? Okay, so I don't have the guts to write a handwritten love note to a guy; but we are being hypothetical and I do. 

So... I write this love letter expressing my feelings. The guy writes back and we begin to write back and forth. This is going somewhere. Well, until we meet face-to-face and he doesn't think I'm beautiful. What happens? Does he friend-zone me? Does he ignore me?

What if... I was writing to Jesus. We met face-to-face and He didn't want anything to do with me because I was so ugly. I was unattractive. Well, you see the thing is I am unattractive because of the sin that is in my life. I am rotten to the core. Jesus doesn't like it. 

However, He doesn't turn His back on me because He has fallen in love with me. He wants a relationship with me. He see's the good in me and that makes me beautiful. The cool thing is that Jesus can take all the ugliness, unattractiveness in my life and make it beautiful.

He makes me beautiful because He sees the girl who loves Him and is committed to being a better person for Him. He sees a girl who is committed to following Him. He sees His not-so-secret admirer, His daughter reaching for help in this crazy life.  

The best thing in all of this is that Jesus died for me to make me beautiful even before I was His not-so-secret-admirer. What love!

Seek the beauty in other people. Not the negative. Let Jesus make you beautiful from the inside out.

God Bless,

Kaitie

Wanted

I was watching a movie the other day called October Baby. Yes, I cried.

For those of you who do not know, I was born in October and I was adopted by my daddy. So this movie really got me thinking about how blessed I am that I am wanted.

I love my momma and daddy with my whole being. God could not have blessed me with better parents who care and want the best for me. God has given me parents who truly want me, who truly love me.

Don't you just love the feeling of being worth something to someone? Everyone wants that feeling. We all have the desire to be needed by someone. Some of us fill this desire of being wanted by earthly things and earthly love.

We fail to realize that God wants us. He truly loves and cares for us.

This gaping hole that needs to be filled, God can fill. While God is my number one, He blessed me with a godly, God-fearing daddy to fill the need of an earthly father. A daddy who truly wants me while my bi-logical dad could care less.

My daddy is my hero. My daddy is my only daddy. I love him for all he is. I love him and am grateful that he wanted me.

God Bless,
Kaitie

Sunday's and Country

Sunday Afternoon's and Country Music.

Life can't get much better than this.

God Bless,
Kaitie

God's Calling

Lately, I have been battling with the fact if I want to look into getting some type of degree in counseling.

As, most of my readers know I am going to more than likely graduate a whole year early. I was so pumped about the fact that I was going to be able to begin my work life early. I am so excited for what God is calling me to that I am anxious to get out there and go!

However, it has been laid on my heart that I should tap into counseling. I don't want to have a practice or any such thing like that. I just want to have the background knowledge. I was determined not to have any more school. Once I graduate Ouachita I want to be done for good. BUT as I kept pushing the thought of a counseling degree out of mind it kept coming back as a heavy issue on my heart.

I don't know if it makes sense to you about the heaviness that I feel on my heart when I think about getting a degree in counseling. Think about it like this though... You know when you know you are supposed to do something because you just feel this burden on your heart that won't go away until you take action? Yes? No? I'm going to pretend you answered yes in your head. Ha. So you understand to a small percent what I'm feeling.

Well, a few things have unraveled lately in my life and it has it the point that I cannot ignore the fact that God is calling me to get my degree in counseling.

It is crazy to me because when I received my call to ministry I was seeking for it. I knew God was calling so I was willing to find my purpose. When it came to me being called to get a degree in counseling I was very hesitant. I knew what I wanted. I wanted no more school. I wanted to get on with my life and have no more school bills adding to the ones I currently have. I had it planned out. First red flag, right? I had it planned out. Ha. No, God has it planned out.

The fact that I am going to graduate a whole year early means that more than likely I can use that year for my degree on counseling still finishing school in a timely manner. God opened that door for me in a way that I would have never thought. Yes, I was very hesitant, but not anymore. I want God's will for my life. I want the purpose he has for me. Not mine.

With all this being said, I am meeting with the OBU school counselor next Friday (Feb.8) to just pick his brain and ask questions. I have so many concerns and questions that need to be answered. I know that there is a lot of different types of degrees in counseling so I am trying to figure out which route I am needing to take. I am so thrilled about this meeting. Even if it is at 8:30am. Ha.

I hope that you too find your purpose in God and that when he is calling you answer.

God Bless,
Kaitie

P.S. Yes, I posted this blog on both my personal and OBU blog. :)

The Vampire Diaries

I have recently been obsessed with The Vampire Diaries. This show is so good and always keeps you on the edge of your seat. It has got me thinking about a few though and I just wanted to share some of my random thoughts. :)

1. We take loved ones for granted, at least I tend to do so.
In this show, Elena (one of the main character's) loses a lot of people she loves. What if that was me? Would I have been happy with the time I had with my family to be satisfied and content for when they pass away?
2. If I could be a vampire (I do not believe they exist by any means), it would be exciting to an extent. However, I'm glad we don't live forever.
As a human we are so vulnerable, but this is how we know we are alive. We have the peace (if you are a Christian) of knowing that when we pass we will be in a much better place, Heaven. I'm excited for that and if wanted to live forever we would miss out on the most important and exciting part of "life."
3. Stephan vs. Damon
This has nothing to do with deep meaning it is strictly about the show... I really want Elena with Stephan. I love Damon, but he isn't meant for Elena. I want someone to come into his life that he truly loves and for that someone to truly love him back.

That is all. :)

God Bless,
Kaitie

Mary Did Know?

This song always gets me to sing along. The words, to me, are so powerful. My favorite is the last verse (of the Kutless version) always gives me chills. I just couldn't image being Mary and knowing that the baby that God had blessed me with was going to save nations...Save me.

Think about that.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day walk on water?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered will soon deliver you.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will give sight to a blind man?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will calm the storm with His hand?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has walked where angels trod?
When you kiss your little Baby you kissed the face of God?

Oooo Mary did you know...

The blind will see
The deaf will hea
The dead will live again
The lame will leap
The dumb will speak
The praises of The Lamb

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy is Lord of all creation?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day rule the nations?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered
Did you know
that your Baby Boy is heaven's perfect Lamb?
The sleeping Child you're holding is the Great, I Am

God Bless,
Kaitie

Sometimes

Sometimes God calls you to do difficult things to further your relationship with Him. Letting go and letting God is the best thing you can do. Having faith in a world full of sin can be one of the most difficult things, but it is the most rewarding thing. God has so much planned for us. God's plan for us surpasses any plan that we could ever imagine for ourselves.

God Bless,
Kaitie